Confessions of a failing mommy!

Don't fall off your chair because I am blogging! (and it is long- don't feel you have to read this all it is my "journal" account)

Monday night was another night of 1st for me. Mac was working (his 2nd night in a row) and we were doing pretty good. We survived 2 soccer practices at the same time 2 different locations all by ourselves. This was the first time Mac was not able to pick up one. Normally I leave Mackenzee and he picks her up. We came home and I had made dinner (request was pancakes- I obliged). Baths had been given to all three kids and we were getting ready for bed (before 8pm!!!).

My sister called and wanted me to do something so I let the kids play for a few more min. Then my aunt called and switched over. At about 8:20 the kids were being kind of crazy so I was ushering them up to bed while talking to my aunt. Mackenzee must have done something because Parker started to chase her. He tripped and fell running down the hallway and started crying. I said "Parker it's okay just hop up and come on." (Mind you I am still on the phone). He jumps up and then starts his high pitched blood curdling scream "I'm bloody, I'm bloody!" I turn back around from the stairs and yes there is blood everywhere.

By the 5 steps it takes to get to him he is screaming like crazy I usher him into the bathroom and over the toilet. I tell my aunt I can hear her anymore and will have to call her back.

***side note for those who don't know me very well... I don't do blood or any bodily fluids. Mac normally takes care of that stuff! Let's just say when my mom had her thyroid taken out and we visited her I passed out at the hospital and there was no blood visible! Okay back to the story***

I am starting to get a little nervous because the toilet is covered in blood, there is blood on the sink and floor. I think Parker has a bloody nose so I am trying to get it to stop by pinching the top part. It is not stopping and the blood keeps pouring out.

Now is when I fail the mommy being strong part. Mackenzee and Eliza are crying, I start crying and call Mac in near histarics. He cant really understand what is going on. I just keep saying there is blood everywhere and I need to call someone to come help, who should I call. He suggest the pediatrician and I say, "NO I need someone here..." I get an idea to call my neighbor her daughter answers the phone and I say "Hi Melissa" she answers "No this is (and says her name but I hear another name a friend that is a nurse). I was relieved I say, "Great Lisa!" She says no this is and says her name again. I finally realize who it is and say, "Can I please talk to your mom!" Melissa gets on the phone and I tell her I need her help there is blood everywhere. She says she will be right over.

Now I am back to finding something to stop the bleeding. And I am still failing as a mommy! All of a sudden Parker starts repetitively yelling "Mommy just get me a cold towel!" Duh!!! (Later I find out that Mackenzee has been saying several prayers on behalf of her brother and I have no doubt in my mind because of those prayers Parker was instructed to tell me what to do. I am so grateful for her faith and the ability to listen when I was obviously not able to do so!) I got him a cold towel and then started cleaning up the blood. Melissa walked in and was AMAZING!!! She went to Parker and she figured out he had sliced from his nose to his lip, we still are not sure how exactly.

In the midst of all of this I am talking to Mac trying to figure out what we should do. I am also trying to get a hold of Lisa, the nurse to check him out.

***another side note... when you are married to a doctor they take care of the medical stuff***

Finally Mac said to take him to the local ER. Uhhh.... I don't even know where the hospital is! Melissa informed me it was less than a mile away (I still need to check out where). I didn't feel great about it considering my lack of control. I told Mac to check out his ER. We decided I should bring him there so Mac could give me his opinion too.

I get the girls in bed. Melissa runs home to get ready for the night and send her daughter so I can leave when we are ready. Lisa gets our messages and comes over and agrees we should take him down to the ER. We get Parker ready and are out of the door around 9:30. He says he is just tired and I tell him to take a nap.

We arrive and meet Mac (thankfully it was a slow night so he could help out). No waiting in waiting room (one of the few perks of working at the hospital). They take his vitals and take us back. There is no rooms open yet so we sit in the hall. Man there are some crazies in this world, dont believe me just go hang out at your local ER :). After waiting for a while Mac goes and grabs one of the doctors and has them give their opinion if it should be stitched or can we just glue it. We find out it has crossed the lip line and therefore it must be stitched. Good thing he ate a little before 7 because they are going to have to sedate him.

They put some numbing cream on his arm. Parker is dosing off and on because it is WAY past his 7:30 bed time now and it has been a very emotionally draining evening not to mention physically too (soccer practice in the HEAT earlier). We are taken back to a room and they go to give him the IV he starts crying and it takes 3 doctors + Mac to hold him down and get it in his arm. Med student, attending, anesthesiologist and Mac. Success!

Now Parker is crying because he wants the "straw" out of his arm and wants to go home! I finally calm him down and Mac starts asking if he can put on stickers (heart monitors). The ER dr says they will just start the med and put everything on him at that sec. They do and everyone is helping get him ready. Parker is crying because they have hooked something to the straw. Mac tells him it will be okay. All of a sudden Parker stops crying and is just staring at the ceiling. He is out. The Med Student starts to sew him up. Mac informs him that his PICU grade is starting right now, no pressure. (I am not sure if he knew Mac was joking.) Everything is going great 3 stitches. Parker starts to wake up right before the last stitch. They give him one more little dose of something to keep him out. Yeah all done now we just have to wait for him to wake up.

During all of this I am sitting at the end of his bed trying not to pass out. Mac had to ask for some juice and the volunteer brought it in thinking it was for the "patient". I had to say "Uhh that is for me, thanks." The guy next to us had fallen on a metal fence post and the firefighters had to use the jaws of life to cut the fence. Then this kid didn't take any pain med and they pulled the rest of the the fence out of his leg. I was listening to this and the "flushing" of the wound and heard the ringing in my ears and the light begin to fade. I told Mac I needed to sit down now! And that my friends is how I ended up at the end of the bed staring at the wall during the whole thing. in my defense this poor kids mom wouldn't even look at him unless his leg was covered up.

Now this has turned into a novel... if anyone is still with me I will make the rest short. Finally Parker began to come to. He had to open his eyes to be discharged. He did after much work from me, Mac and the attending. The attending went to get the papers so we could leave and the anesthesiologist came to take out the IV. At the exact moment of taking it out they wheeled a kid about 3yr old into the room. Parker let out his blood curdling scream and this kids eyes opened to the size of half dollars. Poor kid! Mac walked us to the car and we drove home.

Melissa was so kind to stay with the girls. She even washed my dishes. I am so grateful for her help it was a true blessing. I have had several people say I could have called them and I want you all to know I know that! I am so blessed to have so many great friends that I could call and I know you would be here in a min!

Update: Parker is doing great. He took 1 day off of school and soccer was canceled yesterday due to heat. Tonight he has gymnastics and is excited to show off his lip. Mackenzee who was very concerned for her brother has been very nice to him (although it is waring off). Parker told her thank you for her help and said "It doesn't even hurt anymore! And guess what? I got a straw in my arm just like you and Eliza did!!!"

Now my life is complete all three of my children have been sedated!

Sorry no pictures of the blood bath just the morning after...

Right before taking off the IV tape... almost as painful as the IV :)

This was today 2 1/2 days later


Playing with his best buddy!

House Guests!

(Note: this was typed in June- again just waiting on pictures)

I have been getting several comments from my house guests about not posting since April! Soooo....

My sister and her husband are here and my really great friend from So Cal. (more with them later)

Kristen and Rylie came up for the weekend. They are here to celebrate Rylie's 5th birthday by going to The Lion King! They arrived Thursday night, after Mackenzee was asleep. It was so cute when Mackenzee came down the next morning and saw Rylie she screamed and they ran to each other and gave each other a BIG hug. The funny thing is we had just seen Rylie the week before. It was reayy funny. Mackenzee showed off her house then it was off to play. They each have American Girl dolls (which Rylie brought along) so they have been playing with them a ton. Thursday afternoon we headed to the show. Mackenzee and Rylie along with their 3 American Girl dolls were dressed the same. The looks we got while walking from the parking garage were funny. Everyone just looked at the "5" girls and smiled or pointed at how cute they were.




Everyone loved the show (this is my 3rd time to see it and it was still just as good). During intermission we took the girls out to stretch their legs. While walking down our row all the ladys from the Red Hat Society were commenting on how cute the girls were. They even told Mackenzee and Rylie they were so impressed that their girls (the dolls) were so quiet during the show. And then were telling Kristen and I how they had American dolls too.

Mackenzee kept saying little Simba was her favorite. Rylie said something to Mackenzee about marrying him and Mackenzee turned bring red. And later that night Rylie was telling everyone else about how Mackenzee liked Simba and she was red again. We found out later she liked his curls! Wow Mac and I are in for a long road with her.


After the show we walked across the street to the capital building. I tried to explain that the Govenor and all the state officials worked there but it was a little confusing so I setted with "You know how the Preident of the United States works at the White House? Well the President of California works at the State Capital building." It at least stopped the questions but when they are studying government in school I hope it does not come back to bite me. :)



Next stop was tradition. Kristen and I always go to Cheesecake Factory when we go to a show. Mackenzee is very aware of this. When I told her they were coming for Lion King Mackenzee's comment was "We have to go to Cheesecake Factory too becuase that is what you do, right Mommy?" Like I am ever going to turn down the Cheesecake Factory! We had dessert only and then it was home for homemade pizza. We told the girls they had to eat dinner even though they already had dessert, they did pretty good.


Friday we just hung out and let the girls play. In the afternoon we went swimming at my neighbors pool. Mackenzee was doing great swimming and Rylie is a little fish, seriously! They have a waterfall you can jump off of into the pool and Rylie loved that. Mackenzee has jumped off it before but was being really scared so Kristen, who had not brought a suit, told Mackenzee if she jumped off she would jump in with all her clothes on. Well a half hour later Mackenzee said she would do it. Then twenty minutes later she finally did with Kristen holding her (and after I was coming over to just throw her in). My camera died because it took her sooo long! Luckily we had my sisters video camera rolling. (Another note we got Mackenzee swimming with out the floaties the next week. I am not a fan of them but after last summer at the water park she wont take them off!)


Then Friday night we went to the community theater to see Mulan. It was an all children cast (ages 6-13), and was pretty good. The girls and dolls loved it. The little girl who played the grandma nailed the part and was so funny. The Huns came in through the audience as did the soldiers at one point. I think it kind of freaked out Mackenzee and Parker. Kristen was serenaded by a 10yr old, quite funny.




Saturday Kristen and I did a little shopping before they had to fly home. She went with me to get curtains for my living room. And some shorts at H&M. It was great being able to chat without kids. I seriously had so much fun with her and I know Mackenzee had a blast with Rylie. They are such great friends and we are so lucky they were able to come up and spend some time with us (and celebrate Rylie's bday)!

I just realized no pict of Kristen and I, oh well next time...

School is out!

(Note: this post has been written since the week school was out- just waiting for pictures)

I can not believe we have been out of school for 2 months! Mackenzee will be a 1st grader, wow time flies!

We will miss her teacher, Mrs. Pendleton, very much. She was great with Mackenzee and helped her to learn so much. Mackenzee was very sad when she realized she would not have her as a teacher next year in 1st grade.

The last week of school was so fun. They had Monday, Memorial Day, and Friday, teacher work day, off. They celebrated the summer birthdays by having a party for all of them. I was able to help in the classroom for an entire day, that was a blast. While the kids were making a special "thank you" for their parents (and I had to not pay attention to that part), I worked with them on some end of the year fun. I had them close their eyes and draw a picture. Then we all laughed at how silly they pictures look. I explained to them a little about abstract art. It was so fun to see how excited they were to tell and show Mrs. Pendleton about abstract art!

The last day of school they did a little program of several songs they had learned throughout the year. After each child gave their parent a flower to thank them for their help. Very cute and of course the kids gave the teachers a thank you too.

Before the last day of school:


Singing to parents:















Mackenzee and Mrs. Pendleton

Where does the time go?

I still have not figured out how to use my new computer to download pictures. I can get them on there but dont know where they go after they are there. Trust me for a computer person this is sooo frustrating!!! Once the kids are back in school I will sit down and set it all up. My blog list has become so long it is crazy!!! Lets just say I officially hate VISTA. Okay done complaining. :)

Although some days I cant wait for school to start I have enjoyed having the kids home. Where did the summer go? I cannont believe M will be in 1st grade, all day school! And P will be in preschool. E and I will get to hang out together. Wow I have not had only 1 at home since M and that was 3.5 years ago, what to do?

Funny Conversation with P

P: "Can I watch a movie?"
Mac: "Let's see what Mommy has planned for today."
P: "NOOOO I know what Mommy has planned, its cleaning!"

This is while my sister was in town and they both started laughing.

A boy can never have too many swords, right?

Funny Conversation with E

Me: "Is daddy a boy or girl?"
E: "Boy!"
Me: "Is mommy a boy or girl?"
E: "Favorite!"
Me: "Is Parker a boy or girl?"
E: "Mean!"

By this time I was laughing to hard. Man is she cute!

Parker turns 3!

***I am posting a lot so if you have not been here for a while please scroll down there are 3 more new entries***

Parker turned 3 on Jan 4th. I can not believe how fast time flies. It is a tradition in our family to have doughnuts on your birthday. Since his birthday was on Sunday Mac went out Saturday night and got them. It was a great surprise to Parker (and Mackenzee).



We also made mini- cupcakes for his nursery class at church. He missed the cut off for Primary by 4 days!!! It is probably a good thing though because I dont think he is ready. He was really excited to celebrate with his class and the cupcakes (unfrosted) were a hit!

For his dinner he wanted pizza. So on Monday night we went out for pizza. Parker was so excited. He is in love with Buzz Lightyear (3 pairs of pjs and 3 t-shirts not to mention a blanket and several more Buzz things) so he wanted a Buzz party. It was not his year for a BIG party because 1) we didnt know two many people his age and 2) he had a party last year for his 2nd Bday. Thursday we had our great friends (and Parker's best buddy) come over for cake and ice cream. Even though it was not a huge party I wanted to find a Buzz balloon for him. No luck and it was too late to order it online. So we settled with a Buzz cake. I think it turned out quite well.





Then it was time for presents.
He loved the eyepatch that Marco had picked out especially for him and the green car. It is so sweet Marco pays attention to detail of Parker's favorite color.

All the kids and Parkers gifts. Mac and I got him a tool set so he can "help" daddy with fixing up the house. It has come in handy more then once.
We are truly blessed to have Parker in our family. Although some times he drives us crazy he is the sweetest boy I know. He is so protective and caring twords his sisters it is really sweet. He is also very creative and athletic. Parker is so much fun to be around. His bright blue eyes and smile can light up the room and pull at your heart.